Right now Sara is in barnehagen (kindergarten) without me or Sølve for the first time. When I left her, she said "ha det mamma" (bye mummy) and kept on playing. No tears. I felt a little choked up though. She has been there for 1,5 hour now and I just got a text message from one of the staff saying everything is fine. I'm at home; feeling scattered, not quite sure what to do. I have not shed any tears, but I feel a little nervous ache in my stomach.